18/07: Control Vs. easy going
Though I loathe writing anything in this blog that resembles introspective crap (I barely care about my own feelings, why the hell should any of you?) but I’ve been thinking of something recently I wanted to share, in case you’ve had a similar experience.
I had spent the past weekend at my cabin, hoping to get some swimming and some relaxing book reading in, away form all the complications and distractions of city life (lol irony is hilarious). Sadly the weather wasn’t al of ideal, but that's not the real point. After a short while (having all to quickly used up the books i had brought) I found myself longing for the infinite and instantaneous entertainment usually provided by my beloved pc. It got to the point where I was becoming grumpy not having a computer around. This is pretty bad considering I was gone for a total of all of 3 days. I like to think of my self as an independent person, not reliant on much or have nay sort of addictions, but, here i was only a few days divorced and having pangs of longing.
I think this may also stem a tad form my control freakiness. I like to be in control of my environment, not have my activities dictated by circumstance and anything but my own whims. When I’m at my computer, if I feel like watching something funny, there's youtube. If I want to have some fun and interact with other's there's my MMORG World of Warcraft. Any mood or desire I have for entertainment i can sate almost instantly.
I have often in the past looked down and spoke out against the way our society is sliding further and further into an instant gratification miasma. (more on my dislike of cell phone at a later date) However, I now realize I may be a part of that monstrosity and that pisses me off none to likely. If I don’t follow my own principles, why should I expect others to (I actually have an argument for that but, later).
So I implore you all, take a look at your life, examine your comfortable routines and be aware that you may be relying on things a bit too much, as one day you may find you not enjoying yourself as much as you should, just because something familiar is gone.
If this is rambling or doesn’t make sense, meh, it's a rant, I’m not willing to spend time examine the discussion from all angles, it's off the top of my head.
I had spent the past weekend at my cabin, hoping to get some swimming and some relaxing book reading in, away form all the complications and distractions of city life (lol irony is hilarious). Sadly the weather wasn’t al of ideal, but that's not the real point. After a short while (having all to quickly used up the books i had brought) I found myself longing for the infinite and instantaneous entertainment usually provided by my beloved pc. It got to the point where I was becoming grumpy not having a computer around. This is pretty bad considering I was gone for a total of all of 3 days. I like to think of my self as an independent person, not reliant on much or have nay sort of addictions, but, here i was only a few days divorced and having pangs of longing.
I think this may also stem a tad form my control freakiness. I like to be in control of my environment, not have my activities dictated by circumstance and anything but my own whims. When I’m at my computer, if I feel like watching something funny, there's youtube. If I want to have some fun and interact with other's there's my MMORG World of Warcraft. Any mood or desire I have for entertainment i can sate almost instantly.
I have often in the past looked down and spoke out against the way our society is sliding further and further into an instant gratification miasma. (more on my dislike of cell phone at a later date) However, I now realize I may be a part of that monstrosity and that pisses me off none to likely. If I don’t follow my own principles, why should I expect others to (I actually have an argument for that but, later).
So I implore you all, take a look at your life, examine your comfortable routines and be aware that you may be relying on things a bit too much, as one day you may find you not enjoying yourself as much as you should, just because something familiar is gone.
If this is rambling or doesn’t make sense, meh, it's a rant, I’m not willing to spend time examine the discussion from all angles, it's off the top of my head.
